i don't need a crown to be a princess.. it comes naturally :P

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

26 August 2005
7:11:00 PM

carpe diem :D

we watched the dead poets society at school kanina :D magkakasama sections 4, 5 and 6.. sections 1,2 and 3 watched mona lisa smile :) asteeg tlga dead poets! one of my fave movies ever! haha carpe diem :D so un lang halos ginawa namin for 3 periods.. tambay sa imc :P mga pasaway iii6 e haha may picnic kami knina :P napagtripan ang polo at mentos.. hehe

after nun, we had a guidance session.. napag usapan ang interaction w/ claret.. then we had geom :D naaaliw nanaman ako sa geom :D hahaha ewan ko ba.. aliw talaga 2 col proofs :P after nun, lunch na.. weee haha tapos the rest of the day, chem 0_o hahaha i survived! ok naman e haha 1 period for a game.. another period for a discussion on something that really hurt my head :P and the last period for answering exercises and free time :P in short, parang wla kaming ginawa buong araw haha

i stayed at school until mga past 5.. bonding w/ kada kalog :D aww.. we watched the volleyball game sa covered courts :D panalo stc sa game nila against lsqc :P yay! haha ang galing ni kaka, steph and jay ann :D go classmates! hahaha asteeg to the nth level! after the game, pumunta kaming mcdo.. bonding ulit over hot fudge sundaes haha in fairness ang daming napag usapan.. tapos i sort of made a new friend haha labo.. basta un :D

listen to have you ever by brandy :) sobrang aww.. love it :P

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

25 August 2005
7:57:00 PM

hmm..

this day turned out fine.. in fact, it was better than what i expected.. we went to school in filipiniana costume.. weeee hahaha i wore a pretty dress w/ a pinya thingy on top :P its hard to explain haha basta it's nice.. but it's quite difficult to move in! :P and it's unbearably hot haha we had a mass which lasted until recess.. during the end of the mass, i got to sit beside sister paz :) she's a sweet old lady who really likes roses haha she's so.. so.. idunno.. grandma-like? she makes me miss my lola (god bless her..) she kept on talking to me :) aliw..

i can't believe i wore the dress until before lunch :P haha pinanindigan ko un! hahaha after recess was religion.. so yeah.. we watched the rest of the documentary.. and we sat on the floor.. picture this.. i "indian sat" on the floor wearing the long dress AND shoes w/ kitten heels.. err.. how was that possible?! hahaha next period geom :) yay for sir marvin! haha i love geom :D next soc sci 0_o err.. no comment! tpos english.. more discussions w/ gillian.. then we had lunch :D yay! haha i got to change into my uniform :P hahaha

after lunch, we had another round of geom :D we went to the prac house.. tpos algeb na.. si sir ben naka barong :D weeee hahaha plus points! hahaha anyhoo, we had double tle.. we finally FINALLY got the exam results 0_o hahaha thank god! :P i got only 11 mistakes :D weeeeeee haha we had a quiz and copied lots of notes after..

went to the salon today.. hot oil :P hehe vanity! mwahaha my hair smells so nice :) i love it haha what else? i guess that's it..

lines from michelle branch songs that "spoke" to me today:
*don't just walk away prentending everything's okay.. -are you happy now?
*and waiting is all that i can do until you find your way back to me.. -find your way back
*did i make you nervous? did i ask for too much? -one of these days
*i thought that we would last.. -love me like that
*something 'bout the way you looked at me made me think for a moment that maybe we were meant to be.. -desperately
*well it's all so overrated in not saying how you feel.. so you end up watching chances fade and wondering what's real.. -breathe
*it's easier for me to be alone.. but there's still a piece of me that feels so empty.. what is the chance of finding you out there? -where are you now?
*forgive me if i admit that i'd love to love you.. -hotel paper
*everytime i feel alone, i can blame it on you.. -til i get over you
*and you're everyone i see.. so tell me.. do you see me? -everywhere
*if tomorrow never comes, i would want just one thing.. and it's you........

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

24 August 2005
6:41:00 PM

fieldtrip?? haha sort of :P

the whole school had a break from classes hahaha we all trooped to the CCP and GSIS :) we left stc at around 7:50am.. it was an hour long trip.. saya sa bus! haha umagang umaga foodtrip kagad! :P my tummy is filled with junkfood right now haha guilty.. rar.. but so damn good :P hahaha cheetos, chips ahoy, oreos, piattos, v cut, doritos, etc.. take your pick :P haha

gsis was our first stop.. we looked at paintings there :) naaliw ako sa paintings ni fernando amorsolo, especially the "dalagang bukid" and r. boquirin [not sure about the spelling :P].. also the "parisian life" by juan luna.. the girl's shape is the mirror image of the philippines :D asteeg.. you should see it haha sa entrance ng museum, may huge painting by different artists.. magulo siya at first.. but when you stare at it, you'll see how everything fits in just right.. parang it tells different stories.. it's like a combination of the traditional and modern world.. my fave part of the painting is the image of a lady in a baro't saya.. she's just what i imagine maria clara to look like.. wala lang :) we went to ccp next.. we looked at this exhibit of rituals and musical instruments.. :) then we had lunch sa bus.. we went back to gsis to watch hiblang abo.. its a play about 4 old men in a sort of retirement home.. ang sad ng story.. :( nkaka guilty kasi i fell asleep [yet again!] at one part of the play.. 2 hours e! haha di ko nakayanan :P i slept nalang sa bus ride home.. haay..

i dunno how im feeling right now.. its so.. undescribable.. parang im supposed to be happy.. but i dont feel it.. in short, i guess im sad.. :( rar.. torture.. ang labo ko tlga!!! kanina pa ko mlabo.. actually bangag ako since last night.. woosh.. i dunno what to say.. parang there's a lot to say but i dunno how to say it.. :( what's wrong with me?

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

23 August 2005
6:26:00 PM

boredom..

i've been online since i got home.. haha that's like, 5 hours of mindless clicking.. :P rar.. i so wish i just stayed at home today.. nothing really happened to me at school.. like before the flag ceremony, while everyone was cramming to submit the chem hw, i just observed them and made a mental note to rest when i get home.. first period was AP.. ugh.. save me!! :( i fell asleep.. yes.. i, maria katrina recto, FELL ASLEEP in AP class 0_o we were watching this documentary on africa at the imc.. thanks to the aircon, darkness and lack of sleep, i dozed off at the middle of the film haha when i woke up, i looked at the screen surprised that the film was coming to a close haha quibabs was very supportive :P she let me rest my head on her shoulder.. she also kind of made sure my head wouldn't slip off her shoulder :) yay! haha

next period was algeb, another subject that makes me want to sleep :P we did exercises on permutations.. then recess.. after nun, we lined up and walked to the social hall.. had a looooooong forum thingy with the author of the textbook we're using in pinoi.. weee..

that's it i guess.. i just stayed at home.. boring noh? rar.. sept 2 na sana!!! btw, i uploaded pics already haha yay :D so click *here* if you wanna take a peek haha

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

22 August 2005
10:12:00 PM

pressure..

we had no classes last friday.. party day for me :P some of my friends came over.. we ate, hung out and karaoke-ed hahaha weee.. they loved the magicsing haha saturday, went to glorietta w/ my mom.. i got new school shoes haha i didn't feel like wearing the ones i had kasi.. :P mom got me purple havaianas :D blue kay mara hehe what else? before that i accompanied mom to ghills for a meeting w/ some of her batchmates.. we ate icecream at floyd's :9 yummy haha

today is a monday.. one of the days i dread.. rar.. we had english for first period.. :( boring.. i "discussed" our novel w/ my partner gillian.. i wonder how we answered those guide questions.. considering i didn't really read the novel.. i kinda just browsed through it.. geom naman, i got the lesson.. i remembered sep.. haay.. i miss louie and marie right now :(

anyway, recess was ok.. i actually got to eat something! haha chem after.. i think 0_o oh wait.. double computer pala! how could i forget 0_o rar.. i got colds! garr-ness talaga.. hmph.. chem, we had a quiz on electronic configuration.. si sally pumasok sa pinto hahaha comedy :P lunch, wala.. boring.. basement ulit.. tapos algeb na.. permutations pa rin :( wah.. stop na please!!! pinoi, absent c ms gino cruz.. :( hay.. mrs dacutan substituted.. ok naman pala xa e.. last period rel.. quiz on the world mission mags.. i miraculously got to answer some right haha tinamad akong pag aralan e.. kaya i depended on my memory nlng.. after the quiz, we had a film viewing.. documentary on moses.. tapos dismissal na! yay! haha binigay na sa kin ni carmel ung kada pix :D aliw.. haha

tom half day.. i still haven't made up my mind on what to do.. should i watch the concert w/ arra and the rest? or should i just stay home? tom pala we're gonna meet 2 periods lang.. tapos the rest of the time will be for some talk on who-knows-what.. :( obvious ba na im not paying attention? :( haay.. we're gonna have a sort of field trip on wednesday.. we'll be out the whole day.. im not exactly excited.. parang.. walang gana.. whats wrong with me?! thursday, 5 periods daw chem namin..... 0_o wow.. thanks.. *sigh* friday naman, i think we're going to eastwood.. sana matuloy.. i SO need a break.. im exhausted and its the start of the week palang! T_T noooo!!! i still have lots to do.. like, read mag anak na cruz, our novel and noli.. make notes on pinoi and english.. prepare for my computer report.. :(

there's a lot on my mind right now.. haay.. i just want a break..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

18 August 2005
11:05:00 PM

panda haha

today is probably one of the happiest in my life haha that's an understatement actually :P so here's what happened today.. we had homeroom followed by double period rel.. :) i forgot, for the nth time!, to give ms tsaby the paper she was asking for.. grabe! i keep on forgetting! haha buti nalang di ko nakakalimutan c... umm.. nevermind :P haha group presentation kanina.. some kinda spontaneous kami haha aliw :D

recess then chem.. nung chem, we watched an episode of csi las vegas.. ang sad ng story.. a guy has leukemia.. his little sister [who happens to be like 9 years old or something] has already given him blood and bone marrow.. then the guy's kidney fails.. so his parents want his sister to give him her kidney! 0_o umm.. earth to lil girl's parents! that is way WAY unreasonable.. so this guy "mercy kills" his sis.. by that i mean he poisoned her so that the girl wouldn't suffer anymore.. then the whole family joins in by fabricating a story explaining why the lil girl was missing 0_o again, sad.. this is so..... wyrd....

enough with the wyrd stuff haha we had soc sci next.. test then who knows what.. i was busy thinking of more important matters :) english naman, the results were given na.. im happy :D turns out i got the highest in english haha in the whole batch ata.. sorry if you think im bragging or something.. its not like that.. im just happy cuz i worked for this :) well.. not exactly haha wyrd.. i didnt really focus that day before the english/geom exams.. something really wonderful happened that night haha i couldn't study na tuloy2 :P katkat [fam friend] approached me during lunch.. :) she gave me a bday gift haha super duper cute! she gave me a panda bear! :D aww... how did she know i love pandas? haha we had geom after lunch.. transversals :) then algeb.. rar! permutations :( ayoko na!!! garr-ness.. *takes a deep breath* moving on, we had double tle.. topic: engagement.. nice one! haha labo.. couldn't stop hugging my panda sa classroom haha

dismissal na.. nagpapic kami sa heights :P tapos kain and tambay.. i kinda got in trouble when i got home.. paalam ko kasi hanggang 5 lang.. pero nakauwi ako an hour after heehee good thing my mom isn't mad :P what else? nagpakasenti muna.. thought of my happiness.. wondered about many things.. hugged my panda bear.. then i went online na.. nag ym for a while.. i was happy tapos biglang.. may nangyari.. so i felt kinda guilty.. scratch that.. i felt really guilty.. so there i was feeling like i crashed into a brick wall.. i lost interest in ym-ing.. my tita needed to use the pc anyway.. so i let her use it.. wala akong magawa.. nagpakasenti ulit.. why? e ganun e.. haay..

all of a sudden, a miracle happens :) someone saves me from loneliness.. haha so yeah.. you can definitely say that this day rocks despite the fact that... well.. basta.. :P im happy haha im SO happy :D im.. inlove....

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

16 August 2005
6:50:00 PM

baby freeze! haha

watched bewitched last sunday :D haha ang cute sobra.. nkaka inlove :) i drank a mocha frap haha ang babaw pero that made me very happy.. pauwi na kami when i suddenly became so senti.. tears and all.. good thing i was seated sa likod.. haay..

monday, exams results were given in geom, rel and chem :D i got the highest in geom and chem haha weeee.. kaya masaya :D thats all i remember from yesterday.. oh wait.. nevermind..

today naman.. algeb ung first period.. i got the highest in the exam.. miraculously.. 0_o and to think i actually cried that i didn't finish the exam.. nice one.. come to think of it, now i feel stupid.. wyrd.. double period algeb kasi binigay ni ms gineta ung period nya.. permutations and n! haha recess naman, wala :P wala namang nangyari.. next period geom :) i dunno why geom makes me happy.. so wyrd.. or maybe its because geom reminds me of people.. hmm.. then we had english.. we didn't get the exam results yet.. we kinda had free period haha naaliw nanaman ako sa oil pastels :D weee.. cute e haha lunch naman, still nothing haha

pinoi na.. birthday ng fave teacher ko! haha di ako natuwa sa score ko sa exam.. wah.. so sad.. garr kasi talasalitaan :( sino ba naman kasing ka-age ko gumagamit ng words like daluyong, sagwil at nakaatang? T_T wah.. no more please! haha double pe kami.. walang teacher.. nice noh? natutulog daw 0_o wyrd.. wokei! haha so we just prepared for the gym pre.. marunong na ko mag baby freeze! sobrang accomplishment for me :D haha aliw.. nagpractice kami sa covered court tapos sa grass haha i have never ever felt so dirty in my life! hahaha nakakatawa kaya.. may mga grass kami sa hair hahaha comedy! next period music :) parang free period din haha grabe ang araw na toh.. parang puro free period.. :P nag group work kami.. pero actually nagkwentuhan lang kami haha

well thats how my day went.. :D haay.. dont u just love happiness?

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

14 August 2005
2:53:00 PM

happiness :D

im so happy! is it too obvious? haha the exams are finally FINALLY over! oh yeah! :D geom absolutely rocked haha im so loving geom.. woah.. nerd?? hahaha wyrd :P english kinda sucked though.. it was a pain.. i mean, where the heck did they get those questions?! most of the stuff i studied wasn't in the exam.. garr-ness.. oh well.. cant let that ruin my day haha chem was surprisingly easier than i expected :P pinoi is a different story.. i so loathe talasalitaan :( is it my fault im not much of a deep tagalog-speaking person? waah.. i was practically playing eenie meenie with my answers..... double garr-ness..

again, i wont let that ruin my joyous mood haha so the party yesterday was ok.. what was supposed to be a ii2 reunion of sorts turned into a batch party.. wyrd.. we had fun though :) i didn't swim kc i was gonna go to eastwood after.. they started pushing people into the pool haha ang kulit :P some of my batchmates even swam in their uniform 0_o yeah.. skirt and all.. after that, cams and i went to eastwood to meet the rest of GB :D haha

guess who we saw there haha chris tiu lang naman! hahaha weee.. nag ikot muna kami.. pie and i got shirts from bayo.. then we ended up eating at fazoli's :P request namin ni karol e haha tapos karol and i ate ice cream from floyd's :D karol is my foodtrip partner talaga hahaha we watched wedding crashers which was way WAY funny! hahaha we couldn't stop laughing :P after nun, we went around some more.. i got 4 tops from style centrale haha addict! sowee na :P tagal ko na di nagshop e heehee naglakad lakad pa kami.. then i met up with my sis na.. tapos uwi na kami :) talked with joey when i got home.. kwentuhan ulit.. tapos sleep na :D ang sarap ng tulog ko kagabi haha kahit puyat at kahit kulang.. wanna know why? eh ganun e ;)

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

11 August 2005
4:01:00 PM

exam week!

im actually 15 years old na! haha yay for me :P kinda celebrated nung aug 08.. i hav 2 more parties to look forward to :P haha i feel great! so many people greeted me :D unexpected ung iba.. sobrang reaction ko nlng: wow.. haha dami nagtext.. parang every hour meron naggreet haha tpos my new class surprised me by writing msgs on the board :D aww.. punung-puno pare! haha so sweet :) kada ko nman, nagbgay ng construction paper na may mga msgs din :D xempre nka display yan sa filecase ko :P hehe more surprises.. all the teachers (xcept for one) greeted me :D ms tsaby, ms gino cruz and ms gineta kissed me as cheek haha nice noh? :P wla lng hahaha inggit cla *insert names of classmates here* mwahaha many greeted me rin through friendster and ym :D im so happy haha

yesterday nagstart ung exams.. TLE and adv algeb! waah.. uber bad combo.. garr-ness! di ko gets TLE.. like, the heck?! tpos adv algeb super kulang sa time.. i didnt get to answer the fricking frequency polygon thing.. Badtrip with a capital b.. ngaun ok na.. rel and AP today e :D i can say i did well.. buti nalang lumabas ung mga inaral ko haha grabe.. i was so nervous! i was screaming during recess hahaha wah panic! :P tom geom and english.. my best subjs :D yeah! buti ngaun i can rest.. haay :D

im planning to get an ipod.. pero im thinking kung ipod mini or ung white.. hmm :) gmick this saturday :D kewlness! haha weee.. eastwood baby! B)

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

05 August 2005
8:55:00 PM

time to reflect..

if you don't feel like being in a pensive mood right now, i suggest you click the close button on this window.. this is gonna be one emotional rollercoaster..

so yeah.. my bday is coming up.. monday to be exact.. but for some unkown reason, i cant seem to feel it.. sure im having a party and all.. in fact, i've got 2 parties planned already.. but heck.. im not in a festive mood.. but then again, im looking forward to being 15.. not like anything's gonna change.. i mean, my parents are still gonna see me as this little girl who has to be protected from all the evil in the world.. i'll still feel like a doormat despite the fact that i'm quite vocal about my opinions.. now that i think about it, most of the time i'm pretending.. pretending in a sense that i just show people that i'm happy and stuff.. that i'm ok when i'm really feeling down.. it's like an oxymoron.. i'm very opinionated and i can defend what i think is right, yet i can't seem to tell other people how i feel.. i can't tell some of my friends that i really miss them.. i want to but i'm afraid it would lose it's sincerity because it's already overused.. i want to tell some of them that i feel used and abused.. i'm always there to help them with schoolstuff and lending them money.. sometimes i don't even remind them to pay up which makes them forget.. i don't care about that.. i don't care about how much money i've lost or how many times i've helped them study for quizzes.. i care about how they've taken me for granted.. to the point where some of them even forgot my bday.. i know i don't have a right to make them remember.. im guilty of not remembering some of their bdays too.. but the mere fact that all i've done for them isn't valued makes me wonder what i'm doing wrong.. is it not enough? have i been selfish?

since i feel like reflecting on my life, i want to share what happened to me last saturday.. i was at the entrance of gateway with my friends waiting for our car.. it was 9:30pm ata.. the weather wasn't so good.. all of a sudden, a little girl approached me, asking that i buy sweepstakes tickets from her.. she was about the same age as my brother.. 6 maybe or 7.. and she was just looking sadly into my eyes practically begging me to buy something from her.. that was such a moving experience.. i couldn't see myself buying from her but i wanted to help.. i just heard this voice in my head convincing me that i had to help her.. i know it might sound lame.. but i got lollipop from my bag and gave it to her.. it's better than giving her money cuz someone might just take it from her.. so she said thanks, smiled at me and left.. i just stood there dumbfounded.. i began to think of how fortunate i am compared to others.. unlike that girl, i'm not forced to sell stuff and walk on the streets at dangerous hours.. unlike her, i just finished spending my parents' cash on unnecessary things.. i cried that night in bed thankful for everything God ever gave me.. i told myself to be more selfless and patient.. i had to reach out and make a difference in my own little way.. i believe that people who are given more have this responsibility to share what they have..

i don't know how people will react to this particular entry.. this is, by far, the most significant entry i've ever written.. i hope that through this, others can recognize the value of people and things around us.. i hope that we can all become less materialistic and find joy in the simple things.. and i hope that in a way, i have attained my goal of making a difference..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

01 August 2005
9:24:00 PM

one big fight haha

watched the game last saturday w/ betti, dianne, dana and ishi.. humiwalay si cams e.. :P it was my first live uaap game sa araneta.. the first time i watched was at the blue eagle gym last last season pa ata.. basta back when paul chua was still on the team :) ironic nga kc it was DLSU vs UP.. wla lng :P haha i was with alvina (super fan ng la salle) hehe

anyway, i had a blast cheering on the eagles haha feel na feel ko ung game cuz of the blue babble haha upper a kc kaya we could really hear the drums.. :P may wyrd thing na nangyari before the game.. careless ko talaga.. naiwan ko ung ticket ko sa house! so i had to buy a ticket again hahaha buti nalang meron pang upper a :P weeeee

after the game, [ateneo won! yay!] we met up with neng who watched sa UP side.. pumunta kaming gateway haha it was quite boring there.. wala kaming ginawa kundi mag ikot at tumambay.. i think the only thing we did was to eat and check out the stores.. di kami nakapag arcade or movie :( oh well.. i finally got dianne a bday present :P haha album ng cueshe :D kewl! hehe i love cueshe!!! specially ulan.. waah.. senti to the nth level! haha

we ended up playing at the grocery [go figure] haha and xempre di mawawala ang big chill :9 the best pa rin ang big chill! haha feel ko na tuoly mag lasalle kc sabi ni dianne meron daw nun sa caf nila mwahaha but that would be such a lame excuse diba? i mean, i just wanna go to lasalle kc they have big chill and really cute shirts? doi.. 0_o di ko pagpapalit ang ateneo haha

dumaan muna kami sa house ni neng before heading home.. ishi needed to borrow neng's book kc.. aliw :D wla lang.. nakakatuwa sa hous ni idol nengki :P i got to meet jc [neng's lil bro] haha sosyal na bata.. gusto magpunta sa hotel at hinahanap sila soleil haha wala lang..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*